.:: Lack of serotinin..? ::.

Mood: I think I'm about to be the first vampire in Kuantan.

Recently, I have become seriously nocturnal.

I just somehow stay awake at night,

god knows what I do.

And in the morning I wake up quite early,

because I've got no choice,

that's what happens when you've got

people around you who are dead enthusiastic for breakfast.

And I don't sleep in the evenings since coming back

from Japan, except when i'm dead exhausted.

Anyway.

Accomplishments in the previous 2 days,

I have slaved and slaved and finally manage to complete

75% of my art folio that I'm been putting off the past year.

Managed to figure out that accounts question,

had to figure it out cause I left class arly last friday.

Turns out that accounts will always be accounts,

straighforward and honest.

I don't know why, the word 'sunao' keeps coming up.

And I've watched OURAN 3 times, (all 26 eps),

Jang Geum's Dream,

re-read Kitchen Princess,

continued on a bit of Bleach,

Shugo Chara etc.

Okay craps,

if I dont sleep now,

i can forget about ever waking up :P

Oyasumi!!

.::休み::.

Mood: Ahh. It's going to end soon.

Holidays that it. And it barely started.

Well, after a millenia of zero updates,

here's whats been going on.

As you all know, as I left it,

Mid year exams.

Comments on it?

I had soo much fun!!

This has got to be the best exam yet.

I mean, I'm not saying that it was easy or anything,

in fact, if it was easy, then it wouldn't

be fun, it would be... BORING.

I can't say for sure that I'll score,

but I know that I accepted the challenge posed by the questions,

and I'm proud of that.

I love the third week especially,

well, cause it was the most relaxing one.

I started a mini anime fest right after Bio in

the second week. :P

Add maths was just... thrilling.

There were actually questions which you have to ponder on,

not just some questions where you just have to

substitute values in a formula.

I mean questions where you have to put pieces of puzzles

together before you can fill in the blanks.

(not literally, of course)

After exams,

there was an AFS Farewell dinner,

which was kinda fun.

I never knew there were that many exchange

students in Kuantan,

let alone Malaysia.

One frustrating fact

was that my routher chose the perfect time

to malfunction. I mean seriously,

two whole weeks of no internet?

And just as the third week of exams approached too,

near my independence celebration.

But anyway,

I survived thanks to my useful storage

of animes which I rewatched.

Just started on Haruhi Suzumiya,

thanks to Tee for providing me with the whole series.

I'm still a bit confused about the storyline,

but I'll get it soon.

Hanazakari No Kimitachi E took up most of my time,

I think its my seventh time rewatching the series.

I just love that J-drama!!

And I discovered that Oguri Shun is acting

as Shinichi in Detective Conan live.

But i think he looks best as Sano Izumi though.

The special however, is a bit confusing,

I wonder if its because I'm easy to confuse nowadays,

thanks to lack of anime and sleep.

Putting that aside,

hopped on the 1am bus to KL with my younger sis

on Saturday and came to KL.

Originally planned to go to Penang,

but something came up.

Aww.

And for the past few days,

have been busy swimming for God knows what reason.

I guess its cause I really love water, huh?

I had a few dreams too that really stuck in my mind,

but I'm not going to spill.

[quote] A dream is a wish the heart makes [unqote]

after all.
I'm quoting Snow White by the way,

yes, I can remember her saying that so many years ago.

I think.

Tomorrow, cousins are going to come over for a swim.

Yup, swimming again.

I think I've indulged in enough chlorine

for a lifetime these past three days.

But I'll leave that for another post.

And for those taking AFS interview next week,

goodluck kay?

.:: キッチンのお姫さま ::.

Mood: Paranoia. (Did I spell that right?)

Well, yeah, I know,
I'm really stupid.
I should really be studying for Mid Year
right now and working on
the bundle of priorities in my head
like Nie, S-I-R, Arts Folio and more importantly...
MID YEAR EXAM,
which by the way is next week.
13th May.
Ouch.

And I haven't read a thing.
Except キッチンのお姫さま.
In English, Kitchen Princess.
I don't know why, but I seem drawn to this manga.
Reminds me a lot of Arina Tanemura's
Full Moon wo Sagashite,
both the drawing and the storyline.

I <3 Daichi Kitazawa!!
Daichi just makes me go もえ!!!!!!!
And Sora Kitazawa and Seiya Mizuno too.
The ending was totally cute!~
I like how the author didn't leave out Seiya X Akane.


Top: Najika
Bottom: Daichi~!!! <3

I spent two days fondling over this manga.
Crazy huh?
Now, back to work.
*gulp*

.:: This House Believes That Cameron Highlands is an Awesome Place! ::.

Mood: a bit tired after coming back from Cameron yesterday.
I think we spent around 8 to 9 hours traveling.

And after that experience,
I NEVER want to go in a van again.
Imagine ten people cramming like
sardines in a 9-seat van.
If that's not bad enough, imagine that with luggage.
Then, imagine traveling in the
afternoon when the sun's high up in the sky.
And lastly, add in the fact that the air-conditioning's
NOT working even though its boiling hot.

But it was all worth it when we reached Cameron.
Another thing is,
I never EVER wanna see or eat strawberries again.
It's like total strawberry madness there.
Way too pink for me.

Anyways,
it was a great experience and
I don't wanna talk too much about it
or I just might jump on the next bus back there.
Miss it awfully,
especially the weather and all my friends.

So here's the pictures,
each worth more than a thousand words.
(The pictures are in lower resolution because
it took way too long to upload the original pics,
so these may be a bit blur - I'll upload on fb later)



Me, Pn Zurina and Marjan on the balcony of
our Apartment - Desa Anthurium ( I think.)

Just us girls.
(Sandhya, Banun, Marjan and Me)


Quarter Finals - Government
Ishwaar, Me and Banun


Elucia and me =3
Storytelling since standard 3...


Melody and Me =P
(I still remember her cow costume)


Melody, Banun, Me and Elucia
(I think you can see Pn Wong Bee Bee at the back. =) )


Bentong + Cameron + 1 Kuantan girl (me)


Okay, this was taken by a more 'pro'
camera girl =D

Overall, I loved Cameron,
and it was great knowing everyone.
Hope we meet again really soon!

.:: We're going up the highlands, yes we are ::.

Mood: A bit nervous and excited for tomorrow.
Yea, I'm childish, getting all excited just because
we're going to Cameron for debate tomorrow.

It's just that I haven't been
to Cameron since primary,
wonder if it's changed.

I wonder if Rosa Pasadena,
the hotel that I stayed in three times
for story-telling is still there?

I wonder if that friendly bell-boy who
greets me each year when I check into
the hotel each year back when I was in primary
is still there?

And most of all,
I hope that it was still as cold as
I remember. It'd be too sad
if global warming played it's part there too.
= (

Anyways, wish me luck.
Will update soon, I hope.
And good luck to all of you who are
taking April test next week. :)

.:: Shugo Chara 39 ::.

Mood: Ikuto's finally back to normal. Yay.

This is exactly why I love anime and manga.
Just takes your mind off things.
The next issue comes out on 1st of May.
Owh well. But the pairings are still
Ikuto X Amu and Tadase X Amu.
Grr. Like Ikuto better though =P

.:: Nullified ::.

Mood: Neutral.

Would it be better if everyone were born without emotions?
Even though I know perfectly
that it would be way worst,
sometimes I wish I was born without emotions.
That way, I wouldn't be happy nor sad.
Not a care in the world.

Sometimes, I'm confused.
And its like I can't tell who's a friend or a foe anymore.
I trust a friend and I get hurt.
I think the person's a foe and I hurt a friend.
It feels so stupid and naive of me.

And now,
because of lack of sleep,
I said some things that didn't seem awful,
but apparently was rude.
And its like the whole world's against me.
Worst part is, I can't justify my own fault.
Can only tell myself to not do it again.
And I'm losing a friend in the process.
And I think she's spreading bad word about me.

But I guess, in the end,
I can't do much.
What are friends anyway?
When you are forced in a battle,
then it becomes a 'every man for himself' thing.
No sense of chivalry whatsoever.
So why want friends?
Just because it looks like fun?

I guess, in the end,
the problem lies in me.
I just... don't belong.
And there's not much that I can do about it.
Then again, I never did fit in.
So, its probably futile to worry about tiny things like these.
Only one question remains.
Who can and should I trust?
Will I ever be able to trust again?

I can't believe one person made me feel down
for a while.
But that's over and I'm moving on.
Because the wind is loved and hated too,
and there's nothing it can do about it.
The wind can only be the wind
and its up to the rest to accept it
or isolate it.
And one day, someday,
I will find my own breeze.

If you're cracking your mind trying to understand
this post, then just stop trying.
Cause no one can understand its true meaning but me.
And DON'T bother asking me.
Like I said, I don't belong.

But there are still some I treasure and love in this world,
and that will never change regardless of how they feel.
Even if the feeling's not mutual,
I would always think of them as my friends.
Even if they choose to be the blade that cuts through me.
I guess that's just being me.