They say a picture's worth a thousand words.

Wonder how many words there are here from this collage.
[click for larger view]
But just to summarize;
Christmas in Singapore. Awesome. :)

Will be blogging about it when I feel likPublish Poste it =D

.:: 友達 ::.

Mood: It has been raining so much lately,

can't help but smile every time I smell the scent of rain

and the sound it makes as each raindrop hits the earth.

友達.

Tomodachi.

Friends.

When it comes down to this,

a lot of us may not know the 

true meaning of the word.

And if you're one of those people,

feeling lonely and completely without someone

to rely on, it's not that you're unfortunate,

it's just that you haven't met the right people yet.

So don't give up and keep looking and you'll find them one day. :)

So I guess I should count myself lucky

to have found the people I know today.

And so here's a video I made

for my S3 family, 

who have added even more meaning to the word

'Friends'.

.:: Butterfly ::.

Mood: It's amazing how until today,

listening to Butterfly from Digimon

can jog a chain of nostalgic thoughts,

each one resonating strongly within me.

And how I always feel close to tears when I hear the chorus.

(Because I'll always be reminded of the ending of 01)

18 years.

It's been 18 years since December 6th, 1992

(which happens to be my Parents' Anniversary)

and here I am, waiting for the big change
that's 'supposed' to come with age.

Kinda like a caterpillar waiting to come out of

it's cocoon and spreading its wings to become a butterfly.

But I don't feel different, so it's safe to say

I'm still the same me, on the inside.

Yesterday, the minute I woke up,

my siblings were complaining,

"Your phone's been so noisy!! 

I feel like throwing it out of the window"

And it made me smile, because of the many people who

remembered me, despite being busy with their everyday lives.

Same goes for you people who flooded my wall

on Facebook with your wishes. Thanks so much. :)

We had a lovely breakfast, nothing extraordinary,

but it was really good to me :)

My sister bought me a bag ( a reallyyy pink one!)

so I started using it, younger sister got me some accessories,
and my youngest brother got me earrings :D
Which I'm quite happy with especially the T-cross ones :D

But it was when my mum asked me what I wanted

for my birthday, that my mind went blank,

unable to think of anything for an answer.

And I'm kinda glad, because it could

only mean that I've already got everything

 I could possibly want. :)

It feels like life's pretty much perfect right now.

In the end, we didn't buy a cake

(because I don't really like cakes)

and we didn't go back to Kuantan,

because some things popped up.

But we did spend an entire day together,

arguing, joking around, laughing, hearing each other out.

Pretty much an average day.
But I still liked it. :)


So, looking back 18 years,
how much have I changed and what's still the same?


Obviously, my physical growth would be the biggest change.
I used to be petite, but now I'm surprised that I'm taller 
than some people who I've always thought would be taller than me.
I guess my voice probably has changed,
can't sing as much high notes as I used to be able to. :/
Personality-wise, I'm hoping I'm a better person now,
it'll take a lot before I'll give up on anything :)
And I guess that's partially thanks to anime :D
Haha, owh yeah, 18 years back, I couldn't speak or write Japanese,
so that's a change.


Things that haven't changed?
1. My love for anime :) And this will NEVER change.


2. My ringtone -- been having the same one 
ever since I got my first phone :D
Oh and my phone theme's always been anime,
custom made. :D


3. My hair colour? Actually I've been having the same
hairstyle till a few months back when I had the layer cut. 
Haha, and the length of my hair's approximately the same :P


4. My habit of singing when I like what I'm doing,
or when things get tough and I need a mood change.


Okay, so this is wayy harder than I thought.


But who cares how much I've changed or
how much have I didn't?
One thing's for sure, I'll always be me, 
so I'm guessing that's all that counts.


Some time back, I would always complain that because
my birthday was during the holidays,
I'd never get the chance to celebrate it with friends.
But then, I found out it was my parent's anniversary
and never said a word since.
And then, this year, I did manage to celebrate it with friends,
so I guess there's nothing left to complain about.


It's funny how things always have two sides to it when
you observe well enough.
Just like how the light and darkness co-exist,
bad things can never come without the good.
Every cloud has its silver lining,
when it rains, the stars shine brighter in the night.
And depending on which side of the coin
you choose to look at,
you'll be able to embrace everything.
Or so I think haha :D


So it doesn't matter that with each 
birthday I get older and that I have to finally
learn about the adult world,
because just like everything else, there's got
to be a bright side to this.
Where the shadows are, there has to be a light source.
All I have to do is find it. :)

.:: A Voice From The Past ::.

Mood: Happy because I'm back in my hometown,
Kuantan and that it's been raining,
but above all it's because 
everything feels perfect right now.
(No matter how imperfect it might actually be)


It's funny how things eventually all work out.
I know the saying that everything happens for a reason,
but I never really did believe it until, maybe, now.
Every time there's a quiet moment in college,
I can't help but smile as I think about all the wonderful
things that have happened until now.
And I can't help but thank God profusely for all the
nice things He's set for me,
and Lady Luck for being by my side.


I finally feel like myself again,
I finally feel like the old me who I've been searching
desperately for ever since 'The Shift".
I know, in some ways, I have changed
and although I don't necessarily like some of the
 changes that have taken place,
I gladly welcome the rest. :)


I must admit that I kinda dislike the fact that I'm being
corrupted by my friends, but I guess, it's a bit inevitable.
Knowing these things won't change who I am anyways,
as long as I don't let it happen.


It's kinda stupid, but I was always afraid of growing up,
not because of the increasing responsibilities,
(heck it feels the same no matter what age I am)
not because it means I'm getting older
or my countdown gets closer.
Somewhere deep inside,
I was always afraid that I'd never be
able to see things the same way again,
no longer be able to see things in the perspective of a child.
I was afraid of losing the real me, though I've always known
that could never happen.


When I read letters that I wrote to myself when I was
younger, I feel amazed that I could've known so much
back then.
How in the world, did I, as a child,
know the right words to write to myself in the future?
Every word written years ago, resonated loudly.
And I find myself comparing myself to the past me,
wishing that I could be like her.
It's really stupid, I know, but I did.


Children are so amazing. They can see so much
that we miss in our daily lives. 
How many times do you stop to look at the sky and
marvel at the lovely clouds decorating the azure skies?
It's been so long since I last stopped to listen to the
melodies of the rain and felt the wind blowing into my face.
I can't believe it took a letter from a 15 year old me to remind
me of who I am and who I will always be.
And another letter written much recently,
that puts all the puzzle pieces back into the right places.


Time flies so fast, things change,
that sometimes you lose yourself in the paths of time.
But I'm glad that I found myself again,
and that I've got a place to belong to once more.
I'm glad I never gave up on making friends
just because I got betrayed more than once.
I'm glad I never gave up on God,
just because things seemed like a mess once upon a time.
I'm glad I never gave up.
I'm glad I was born.
I'm just glad. :)


And I never want to lose sight of who I am again.
And I never will :)

.:: It's like finding the place you were always meant to be ::.

Mood: It hasn't been raining much lately,

but I've been absolutely happy. :)

It's been ages since I've last blogged

and it's not surprising considering how busy I've been

in the past few months.

(Actually it's only been at most 3 months,

but it feels like I've already completed a whole

semester, what with the amount of stuff

we're learning every day)

College is awesome!

That would pretty much summarize my entire post.

I remember those times when I loved going to school

so much, that I would go even if I wasn't feeling well.

I guess I have to say the same about college.

(It would be disastrous to miss any classes anyways,

at the speed we're going)

But somehow, even with all the work we're doing,

how much we're cramming in in such a short period of time,

it doesn't pressure me at all.

And I have my friends to thank for that. :)

If I were to describe my life in college, 

I wonder where I should start?

With the fact that I'm doing all the subjects I love

which makes every class worth going to?

Or the fact that I can share absolutely anything

with the girls; Harmeet, Pav, Clandia, 

Zahrah, Ummaira etc

without feeling awkward?

Or the fact that there's always a reason to laugh in class,

either cause of Yow Wai's witty sarcasm,

Aryl's blur-ness in the way he asks questions,
Sien Son's excitement in completing a tough math question
(which reminds  me of myself sometimes hahax), 
Jee An's lame math jokes or
jokes and teases about Yow Wai's age and
Fariz's long hair.

Class would never be complete without
Iqhwan, Fateh and Yoga too.
It's like we're this one 'big' S3 family.
And though I hate it when I get laughed at
for not understanding their perverted jokes,
it's nice to have everyone laughing so much
that I eventually feel like laughing too.


Oh, and when Malaysian studies and Econs
come, I have another class of people
that I like chatting with.
Teasing Stephenas and Hafizul never seems to
get old, just like how much I tease Alvin and Sue Yinn
together hahax. (they're so gonna murder me if
they ever read this.)
Alvin's been a major big bully recently 
(though comparatively better than Aryl in terms 
of irritating-ness),but it's okay, 
since it's easy to get revenge on him.
Bwahahahahahahaha,


Of course, let's not forget our lecturers. :D
It's really awesome that we have such
sporting math lecturers that spoil us with
knowledge and fun :)
I love how we can easily joke with Ms Amy,
(class is rarely quiet when she's around since it's
too fun for that) and how Ms Yap will gladly
answer just about any question we ask,
no matter how irrelevant it may be,
and actually bother explaining it in detail.
The fact that she doesn't mind telling us stuff
out of syllabus is pretty cool too :D


Physics with Ms Deborah is good too,
with all her stories for examples (though sometimes
violent and gory ones) especially the
one about the mer'maid'. :P
Having Mr Nedu for Econs somehow eases the
fear & lack of confidence I have for the subject
(cause of my lack of general knowledge which I am
'trying' to improve) since Econs is a lot more than just theory.


I wonder if there is a bigger and more bombastic word
to describe the fun I'm having when I'm in college?
For now, let's just stick with 'awesome', shall we?
Yes, college life is good.
It's like finding the place you were always
meant to be.

.:: So Close!! ::.

Mood: Almost there, just a few more hours of editing 

and it's going to be done!

Even before SPM started,

ever since I watched the Yusei X Aki Lovestory

Video, I've been itching and itching to make my very own

AMV of Special A and YGO 5D's using

Taylor Swift's Love Story.

Months passed, and it was left undone.

Weeks before college started,

I finally completed it,

but put off the touch-ups till later.

Then came the AMV Competition

hosted by the Anime Club of my college,

and it gave me a bit more motivation to touch-up

on my video;

adjusting frame size, timing, water-marks,

credits etc.

Now all that's left is to upload it. 

Muahahahahahaha!

It feels great to have completed something. :)

Next up, Malaysian Studies assignment. 

.:: So it's back to college once more ::.

Mood: A bit sad since I'm going to

be leaving home once more to go to KL.

But no worries, as I'm coming back on Thursday

this week, since Friday's a holiday :D

Yesterday, went out with an unexpected

visitor to Old Town Kopitiam together with Pink.

It's been quite a while since I've last been there,

kinda miss the Milk Tea and the nice 

kaya butter sandwiches.

Later at night, we went to watch The Last Airbender,

a movie adaptation of the famous 

cartoon  Avatar; The Last Airbender.

CG effects were good, adaptation-wise not so.

I hated it, to be honest.

Aang and Uncle Iroh's name were pronounced so wrongly,

I couldn't help correcting Katara and Zuko each time they

called their names wrong.

Princess Yue was as beautiful as she is in the cartoon though,

so that's sort of a consolation.

Sokka became this whole new other character,

he's no longer the funny and amusing Sokka anymore. :(

Big loss.

So, there's three hours left on the clock

before I hop on that vehicle and bid Kuantan goodbye

till next Thursday.

Well, might as well get started on packing now,

if I'm gonna make it back.
But first, I'm gonna watch this recent episode of Yumeiro Patissiere :D

.:: Home Sweet Home ::.

Mood: Pretty happy to have reached home by

evening, considering the fact that every time I

come home it's always early Saturday mornings.

It's been ages since I last blogged;

guess I really have been too caught up in college life.

But once in a while, moments like this come up,

things slow down for a while and I get to

slowly appreciate life the way it is.

How long has it been since I've left the Me who was in Form 5?

How long has it been since all the hassle of going for

interviews?

How long has it been since I left UCSI and rejected JPA's offer?

How long has it been since I did what I finally wanted to do

by entering Sunway UC?

At the end of the day, I'm pretty happy about what has

happened so far, eventhough at that time I couldn't have said the same.

I'm glad that I didn't stop believing in God

and that He didn't stop believing in me.

I'm glad everything happened the way it did

because if it didn't, then I wouldn't be where I am today.

Because I love where the paths of time have taken me,
and I would never want to go back in time.


As always,
It's great to be home, though it's only been a week
since I've last been here.
Everything from the air, the birds chirping, the way
sunlight creeps into my windows in the early mornings,
and even the not-so-pleasant voices of my noisy siblings
disturbing my sleep, 
all welcome me home.
It's like all the pieces of a scrambled jigsaw being
pieced together again. 
It's complete once more.
SO much to do, so little time.
=)

.:: 幼い頃; Those Childhood Days ::.

Mood: Feeling nostalgic over the past.

Is it just me, or does everyone have

mixed feelings before going to college?

Before, I would've never noticed

that going to college was such a big step forward.

I mean, from the eyes of a 6 year old,

it's just like advancing to the next step in life,

like moving from primary to secondary school.

If so, then it should be relatively easy right?

Though I'm not against the idea of going

to college, (pretty excited actually),

at the same time, a small part of me

is hesitant and wants to stay at home.

Guess a child still exists within me somewhere,

I'm already thinking about how homesick

 I'll be when I'm there. Haha.

Though I do get the feeling that I won't be that

homesick once I adapt to college life,

I do know that college will change me,

in more ways than one.

So anyways, yesterday after packing

(in other words, adding a few more stuff into

my half-full lugage), me and my sister

youtubed all those cartoons we watched when

we were younger (like when she was 7 and I was 2).

There were so many cartoon titles that I have almost forgotten,

but once the opening song played, I could

remember the tune. :)

Like for example:

1. Where is Carmen Sandiego?

2. SWAT Kats

3. Double Dragon

4. Kimba the White Lion! :P

5. Ghost busters

6. Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers

(Okay this is not a cartoon, but I was obsessed with

Power Rangers once-- figurines, costumes etc)

In fact, I still remember my favourite rangers;

Tommy (White) and Kimberly (Pink)

Yes, I was a Power Rangers nut :D

7. Mummies Alive

8. Duck Tales

9. Scooby-Doo!

10. Gargoyles

(This one appears to be a more recent version)

God I used to be a huge fanatic of this series.

I remembered mimicking the way they walk

and stuff- haha!

Well, those were 10 cartoons that I used to watch in

the past, not including all those Disney classics;

Lion King, Bambi, Snow White etc

I miss them all so much!

In fact, I missed Gargoyles so much that I practically

watched 6 whole episodes on youtube

yesterday night and I'm continuing this morning. :D

Yes, the wonders of cartoons.

It makes me feel like building a time machine to

go back. But then again, who says that

we have to be 6 year-olds to love

all the cartoons that I mentioned above?

Guess I've got to quote Aya;

I can cry all I like, but I can never return

to the past. Even though I've become like this,

I'm still me. I want to like the 'me' that I am right now.

(Tears still threaten to well up whenever I

re-watch or even listen to 1 Litre of Tears' OST.

Yes, it was THAT touching.)

Well, UCSI, here I come.

Not as an adult, not as a teenager, not as a child.

Just as Me. Because that's all that I wanna be.