.:: 私の心,アンロク!! .::

Mood: Happy cause the rain's back and so am I.

I feel like me again.
Can't believe I spent two hours colouring
Luna colour pencils and a palette in my art folio.
Hey, I haven't used colour pencils to seriously colour
since primary kay?
I always thought colour pencils were a bit dirty
and smudgy. I prefer highlighters,
marker pens and even water colour.

Anyways, the post tittle today's
Watashi No Kokoro UNLOCK!
Which means:
My own heart, UNLOCK!
which is a quote from,
the ONE and ONLY Shugo Chara!

Suddenly I'm not enthusiastic to watch the anime
anymore after reading the manga,
which has so much more info in it.
And in the manga, Amu has already transformed into
Amulet Fortune.
I wonder what powers she can use,
cause she already combined Ran, Miki, Su and Dia
to Chara Transform into Amulet Fortune.

And my beloved Ikuto has Chara Transformed
into Seven Seas Fortune!
Though I loved Black Lynx as well,
I gotta say, I'm anticipating the next chapter badly.
Death Rebel looked okay, but I disliked the fact
that Ikuto wasn't really conscious when he was Death Rebel.

Yup, for those who don't watch Shugo Chara,
this whole post isn't for you.
This chapter 38 is sooo Amuto-licious!!!



Amu hugging Ikuto. Notice she's Amulet Dia. Yup, Dia's back!


Dia calling Ran, Miki and Su to Chara Transform.

*drumrolls*


And there you have it.
(left) Seven Seas Treasure (right) Amulet Fortune.
The next chapter's gonna be realeased on 3rd April.
Hope I have the patience for that. >.<

.:: Holiday! ::.

Mood: All cheered up cause the holidays are here.

I haven't blogged for what seemed like a millennium,
so here's a post at last.

Just finished reading Angels and Demons
by Dan Brown recently,
thanks to a recommendation by an elderly man.
=P (I hope you're reading this)

Fine, so it was an awesome recommendation,
though it was a bit gruesome here and there,
but I loved the plot.
Complex and complicated.
So anime-like.
So now, I'm all up for Da Vinci Code.

And I have finally started on my art folio.
I've decided that this one week of holidays
will be dedicated to completing my art folio,
before something turns up and makes me too busy
to have time for it.

Best part about the art folio is,
it's drawing underwater motives.
Yup, water. One of my twin elements.

And I just realized (how slow am I?!)
that I learnt Vectors (Chapter 3)
back when I was in Maebashi Minami.
I mean, at that time, I thought I was solving algebra.
It makes me wonder how I solved a question blindly.

Lingua pura. Mathematics.
I totally fell for that quote.
It sounds so dignified.
=)

Well, guess before I continue to crap on
about the most unimportant details ever,
I should say that, the numbness is gone.
The rain's back, and so am I.
And I'm grateful.

.:: Numb ::.

Mood: Do you know the feeling when you put
yourself in a freezer for way too long
till you can't feel anymore?
Yeah, numbness.

Maybe it's just the warm weather
without any rain, or there's SERIOUSLY
something wrong with me.
I hate the me that I am now.
It feels like I've been influenced,
like I've changed.
And I absolutely HATE that bloody fact.

Didn't I always say that I'll always be me?
Then, what the heck is this?

I haven't been able to connect to the
wind and rain recently.
It's almost like they're fading away,
because I'm changing and there's something for me to realize
that I haven't yet.
I just wish that there was some sign.

Maybe it's because I haven't been putting my
all in stuff recently.
How do I say this... it feels empty?

And I HATE the fact that some people
think I can't take care of myself.

And I totally hate my state now.
My voice's not coming back
and I can't sing.
How long will it take for this flu and sore throat to be gone?
I desperately wanna sing.
It feels like all these feelings are bottled up in me.

School, is well, fun in some parts,
but there's always something missing.
More like, I'm the part that doesn't belong.
Sometimes, it's a saddening thought,
but I'm holding up, because an occasional breeze
that comforts me and tells me to be strong.

Yup, the wind may falter,
it may be strong sometimes and barely
felt other times, but it's always there.
It's existence is absolute.
When I listen to the wind, I feel like,
heck, I can try a bit harder too,
because like the wind, there are ups and downs in life.

So, I've decided.
I'm me, right?
So, if I hate the current me,
I just have to change myself.
I wanna be the person who I always was.
So even if I'm alone in this world,
I'll be just fine with my melodies.

A voice from the past,
join in yours and mine...
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes on and on.
Melodies of Life,
Come circle round beyond the flying birds.
As long as We remember.

As long as I remember.