.:: NOT Thinking About the Future Makes Things So Much Easier ::.

Mood: Quite tired after everything that's happened these

past few days.

Contemplating on whether I should even attend

the ASEAN selection tests.

I mean, it's only Pre-U and it starts next year.

The interview might only be around August,

when I'm already set on where I wanna go.

On the other hand,

it wouldn't kill to give it a shot, 

just for the fun of doing the tests.

It's been some time since I had to do some real math,

after all.

*sigh*

Sometimes, it's so much easier to live in the present

and think nothing of the future.

I guess that's what I'm planning to do,

though sometimes I can't help but wonder

what the future brings.

Que Sara Sara.

I was going to post about the Shell interview,
but was too tired to do anything else yesterday.
And whatever happened today was pretty
disappointing as well.


But unfortunately, for some reason,

このかめんは取れない,
 これは私の素直の気持じゃない。
何故だろう, 
自分の本当の気持が見せて出来ない?!
いつもこの馬鹿馬鹿しいの笑顔だけで, 
中の気持にはだれにもわからない。
I'm glad that I learnt this extra language, 
for some reason.
Another gift anime has given to me.

.:: Butterflies, Fly away~ ::.

Mood: Nervous.

Had my breakfast, but the only things that seem

to be in my stomach right now are butterflies.

Hopefully, the interviewer won't hear them fluttering in my stomach.

Then, again, I just have to do my best, don't I?

Hoping these headphones work...

IF I have the mood, I might blog about it later.

But anyways, thanks God,

for giving me another door when I least expected it.

.:: When One Door Closes, Another Opens, huh? ::.

Mood: Kinda happy since it's been raining,

but like life itself, my mood has got it's ups and downs.

For those of you who don't already know,

I didn't get the JPA scholarship.

Surprise-surprise!

God-knows-what happened, so I was missed out

from the list of successful candidates.

I can't say that I'm completely fine with it,

but I'm no longer down in the dumps either.

There's nothing a good song or two can't cure.

(was actually down when I heard of some things,

but I refuse to comment on that since people have the freedom

to do whatever they like; they have their own conscience to deal with)

So one door has closed, for now,

because I don't ever seem to give up, do I?

A second door opens with an email and a phone call

that caught me at the most unexpected moment.

Will keep my fingers crossed for this one. :)

It came with the rain, as always.

At the moment, I'm going to be going for form 6;

to kill time on one hand, but also for the fun of it.

YES, I said it. Form 6 IS fun. No joke.

I like whatever I'm learning, with the slight exception

of Pengajian Am, of course, but I could learn to like it.

I guess if I think about it like history,

i might be reading PA more often than I think.

My favourite subject still stands with Mathematics though

but I'm pretty much loving Chemy and Physics as well.

And like everything else I do,

I'm going to make the best out of each minute spent in Form 6.

The past few days have taught me a few things,

but in the end, the most important one still rounds up to:

Life isn't easy. There are many cruel things happening around us.

And there's always someone who's being unfair,
and loads of times we doubt the existence of God.


But whenever I think about it,
I feel like I shouldn't be doubting God, since it wasn't his fault
things turn out the way they did.
We create our own future; we choose the paths to walk on,
God didn't make us choose, so its unfair to place the blame on Him.
Now that the veil no longer blurs my vision,
I can see things in a clearer perspective.
Yes, I do feel angry whenever someone doesn't keep to the rules
when I have, but that's no reason to ever curse God's existence.
And whenever I hear some one saying Life is hard,
I think back on Yui's song.
If life wasn't hard, then I wouldn't keep living on.


Thankfully enough,
this rain has just washed away any fears,
uncertainties, or any wavering feelings of mine.
これは Clear Mind と言う事かな?
Maybe I'll even be able to Accel-Synchro now,
in my very own way, by overcoming my own limits. :D