First it was just the nocturnal-ness,
which I tried to cure,
but it ended up with me sleeping more than ever necessary.
And now.
After yesterday, I think I've pretty much
gotten used to the taste and the scent of blood.
I know perfectly well how
'throbbing fangs' feel like,
if ever that was used to describe a vampire.
All that's left now is to upgrade my brain
and I could probably join Kaname's class.
I guess seeing things this way makes it a lot
better than screaming Armageddon
for having my teeth pulled out.
My tear ducts have dried up,
together with any signs of indecisiveness & regret.
No matter what I do now,
there's no way back,
the only path open for me is forwards.
Yesterday, when I decided on something that
I did spend time regretting on,
I had placed a bet.
A bet that I could withstand this,
that a little pain like this would be nothing
against my will to fight for what I've always held important.
And I don't plan on losing this bet.
So goodbye, regret,
as easy as it is to dwell on you,
I hate losing more than that.
And I have someone I cannot let down.
I cannot let go my current purpose of existence.
And I know I won't.
Because He's up there.
And the Wind is here with me. :)
If all works well, we'll know that God's
so kind that He even blesses vampires like myself.
And I have a feeling He will.
My Melodies
