.:: Butterfly ::.

Mood: It's amazing how until today,

listening to Butterfly from Digimon

can jog a chain of nostalgic thoughts,

each one resonating strongly within me.

And how I always feel close to tears when I hear the chorus.

(Because I'll always be reminded of the ending of 01)

18 years.

It's been 18 years since December 6th, 1992

(which happens to be my Parents' Anniversary)

and here I am, waiting for the big change
that's 'supposed' to come with age.

Kinda like a caterpillar waiting to come out of

it's cocoon and spreading its wings to become a butterfly.

But I don't feel different, so it's safe to say

I'm still the same me, on the inside.

Yesterday, the minute I woke up,

my siblings were complaining,

"Your phone's been so noisy!! 

I feel like throwing it out of the window"

And it made me smile, because of the many people who

remembered me, despite being busy with their everyday lives.

Same goes for you people who flooded my wall

on Facebook with your wishes. Thanks so much. :)

We had a lovely breakfast, nothing extraordinary,

but it was really good to me :)

My sister bought me a bag ( a reallyyy pink one!)

so I started using it, younger sister got me some accessories,
and my youngest brother got me earrings :D
Which I'm quite happy with especially the T-cross ones :D

But it was when my mum asked me what I wanted

for my birthday, that my mind went blank,

unable to think of anything for an answer.

And I'm kinda glad, because it could

only mean that I've already got everything

 I could possibly want. :)

It feels like life's pretty much perfect right now.

In the end, we didn't buy a cake

(because I don't really like cakes)

and we didn't go back to Kuantan,

because some things popped up.

But we did spend an entire day together,

arguing, joking around, laughing, hearing each other out.

Pretty much an average day.
But I still liked it. :)


So, looking back 18 years,
how much have I changed and what's still the same?


Obviously, my physical growth would be the biggest change.
I used to be petite, but now I'm surprised that I'm taller 
than some people who I've always thought would be taller than me.
I guess my voice probably has changed,
can't sing as much high notes as I used to be able to. :/
Personality-wise, I'm hoping I'm a better person now,
it'll take a lot before I'll give up on anything :)
And I guess that's partially thanks to anime :D
Haha, owh yeah, 18 years back, I couldn't speak or write Japanese,
so that's a change.


Things that haven't changed?
1. My love for anime :) And this will NEVER change.


2. My ringtone -- been having the same one 
ever since I got my first phone :D
Oh and my phone theme's always been anime,
custom made. :D


3. My hair colour? Actually I've been having the same
hairstyle till a few months back when I had the layer cut. 
Haha, and the length of my hair's approximately the same :P


4. My habit of singing when I like what I'm doing,
or when things get tough and I need a mood change.


Okay, so this is wayy harder than I thought.


But who cares how much I've changed or
how much have I didn't?
One thing's for sure, I'll always be me, 
so I'm guessing that's all that counts.


Some time back, I would always complain that because
my birthday was during the holidays,
I'd never get the chance to celebrate it with friends.
But then, I found out it was my parent's anniversary
and never said a word since.
And then, this year, I did manage to celebrate it with friends,
so I guess there's nothing left to complain about.


It's funny how things always have two sides to it when
you observe well enough.
Just like how the light and darkness co-exist,
bad things can never come without the good.
Every cloud has its silver lining,
when it rains, the stars shine brighter in the night.
And depending on which side of the coin
you choose to look at,
you'll be able to embrace everything.
Or so I think haha :D


So it doesn't matter that with each 
birthday I get older and that I have to finally
learn about the adult world,
because just like everything else, there's got
to be a bright side to this.
Where the shadows are, there has to be a light source.
All I have to do is find it. :)