.:: aTaSHi No KaKeRa ::.

Mood: A lot more steadier than how i was before.

Recently, I haven't been really been giving 100% for everything.
I know that it was very wrong of me now.

It's unfair if everyone else, including my rivals give 100%
and I don't.
I know he'll be very disspointed in me if
he saw this from the heavens above.
So there.

I'll try to go all out in everything,
that's my resolution for this new month.
(usually I have resolutions during new year, but what the heck)

I found my diary under my bed,
after God knows how long it was missing.
(actually it was only 3 months ago and
YES there's nothing wrong with having a diary at this age)

I miss the old me.
Back then, I had him by my side.
Okay, fine, I'll cut the suspense.
Him here is my rabbit.
He died in 2005.
3 years ago.

I actualli cried reading the page I wrote
when he died.
Countless teardrops fell from my cheeks.
I haven't cried like that in such a long time.
I guess, being weak has its good points.

I do remember the wind whispering,
because I'm weak,
I have the strength to be stronger.
If you can make no sense out of a word I'm saying,
ignore this post,
because this is one of those
'self-relection' posts I occasionally do.

Just need to transfer and straighten out your feelings
sometimes.
God gave me the strength to try.
To try my best and hope to be stronger.
For me, and for my loved ones.
Family.
There can be no other for me.

So, in CONCLUSION (finally!)
I'll just have to try my best, ne?
If anyone watches Suiri No Kizuna / SPiRal,
I'm proud to say I'll aim to be like
Ayumu Narumi.

Kiyotaka's little brother.
I might fall to the deepest depths of failure,
but like him,
I SHaLL have the strength to get up again.
Because, that's why I was born a human.

[end of self-reflection... you did NOT read this post]