.::EveRLasTiNG::.

Mood: Considering the fact that this is the third time I am forced to retype this post as the Internet Explorer failed me twice, I am a bit frustrated. but other than that, I'm doing Maths homework with pleasure.

Just realized it has been ages since I've blogged. School's great, but it can never be the same as last year. I wasted 9 hours in school for some motivation programme, though I can admit it was a bit enjoyable. Some people have drastically changed. Not one, but many. Gotten new friends, talk less or not talk at all... Refuse to name them all out, I'm not looking to offend people here. My fault partially as well. This coming Wednesday's public speaking competition. Haiz. I have to admit, I really dislike public speaking. No matter how many times I do it, it still feels alien. I can't express myself. Perhaps I really am not fit for a public speaker. Nad, on the other hand is a natural and I'm not ashamed to announce that. I hate it that everyone has high hopes on me for something that I know I'm gonna mess up. And I really hate it that whenever I do mess up, people cover for me by giving excuses. It's not that I don't appreciate it, but it just makes me feel worst. Last Thursday, 100+ students were sent outside the gates of SMKART because of bad examination results. I was shocked because I never thought the pengetua meant it literally. Surprising, huh? It's a one-of-a-kind situation. Luckily I wasn't sent out, but even if I was, I wouldn't have minded. Who would when you're standing alognside hundreds of others? It looks more like fun than of punishment. Just happy that they're not caning us for bad results. Kinda dissapointed with my results as well, eventhough they are 6A's. I'm aiming for all 100%, but this is what I can get. Crap. Aside that, wondering why the tittle for today's post is Everlasting? It's a song by BoA that I'm really into. It is the perfect song for me to sing to a certain someone. Haha. Here are the lyrics (romaji) and the translation. Maybe after reading them, you can see why I'm so into it and maybe guess who that "certain someone" is.

Everlasting

(Romaji Version)

Gairoju nokoru yukitachi ni
Hikari to kaze ga furi sosogu
Mune wo hatte mo utsumuite mo
Kisetsu wa ashi wo tome nai ne

Yubi kiri mitai kawashiteta
"Ja ne" to "mata ne" tte iu kotoba
Nareta shigusa mo wasureru no?
Chigau mirai he yuku no?

Kono sayonara ga tabidachi naraba
Boku no egao wo zenbu ageru yo
Deatta koto mo aruita machi mo
Futari no mune de iki tsudukeru no

Zutto zutto wasure nai
Tobira ikutsu akete mo
Donna ni tooku hanarete mo
Tsunaida te to te hanare wa shinai

Muriyari ni demo wasure nakya
Tsugi no jibun ni ike nai no
Ugoki hajimeta HOOMU goshi
Kimi ga chiisaku naru

Kujiketa toki wa sou boku no tame
Daijoubu dato naite kureta ne
Haji nai you ni tsuyoku naru kara
Yakusoku suru yo yume wa kanaeru

Oto no shinai namida ga
Kono mune nagareru kedo
Kuyamazu ni fumi dasu yo
I'm sorry for your tenderness
Mata aeru made

Everlasting...

Kono sayonara ga tabidachi naraba
Boku no egao wo zenbu ageru yo
Deatta koto mo aruita machi mo
Futari no mune de iki tsudukeru no

Zutto zutto wasure nai
Tobira ikutsu akete mo
Donna ni tooku hanarete mo
Tsunaida te to te hanare wa shinai

(English translation)

The remaining snow on the roadside trees,
are blown away in the light.
Even if I'm filled with pride or looking down at myself,
I can't stop the seasons from changing.

Just like pinky swearing,
or saying phrases like "bye" or "see you".
How can you forget these familiar gestures?
Are we headed to different futures?

If this farewell is the beginning of a journey,
I'll smile as much as I can for you.
Even the fact that we met and the streets we've walked
will remain in our hearts.

I'll never, ever forget,
even if I open countless doors.
It doesn't matter how far apart we are,
Our locked hands
will never separate.

I have to forget you even if I have to force myself
or I won't be able to face the rest of my own journey.
As the train starts to move away from the platform
you become small.

When I was in pain, for my sake,
you told me it would be all right through my tears.
I will be stronger so that I won’t feel embarrassed,
So promise me that our dreams will come true.

My silent tears are
pouring out of my heart but
I'll take a step forward without regrets.
I'm sorry for your tenderness,
until I see you once again.

If this farewell is the beginning of a journey,
I'll smile as much as I can for you.
Even the fact that we met and the streets we've walked
will remain in our hearts.

I'll never, ever forget,
even if I open countless doors.
It doesn't matter how far apart we are,
Our locked hands
will never separate.

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Guess that's it. Blessed it be.

--Resha