.:: One step closer to becoming a vampire ::.

First it was just the nocturnal-ness,

which I tried to cure,

but it ended up with me sleeping more than  ever necessary.

And now.

After yesterday, I think I've pretty much

gotten used to the taste and the scent of blood.

I know perfectly well how

'throbbing fangs' feel like,

if ever that was used to describe a vampire.

All that's left now is to upgrade my brain

and I could probably join Kaname's class.

I guess seeing things this way makes it a lot

better than screaming Armageddon

for having my teeth pulled out.

My tear ducts have dried up,

together with any signs of indecisiveness & regret.

No matter what I do now,

there's no way back, 

the only path open for me is forwards.

Yesterday, when I decided on something that

I did spend time regretting on,

I had placed a bet.

A bet that I could withstand this,

that a little pain like this would be nothing

against my will to fight for what I've always held important.

And I don't plan on losing this bet.

So goodbye, regret,

as easy as it is to dwell on you,

I hate losing more than that.

And I have someone I cannot let down.

I cannot let go my current purpose of existence.

And I know I won't.

Because He's up there.

And the Wind is here with me. :)

If all works well, we'll know that God's

so kind that He even blesses vampires like myself.

And I have a feeling He will.