.:: When One Door Closes, Another Opens, huh? ::.

Mood: Kinda happy since it's been raining,

but like life itself, my mood has got it's ups and downs.

For those of you who don't already know,

I didn't get the JPA scholarship.

Surprise-surprise!

God-knows-what happened, so I was missed out

from the list of successful candidates.

I can't say that I'm completely fine with it,

but I'm no longer down in the dumps either.

There's nothing a good song or two can't cure.

(was actually down when I heard of some things,

but I refuse to comment on that since people have the freedom

to do whatever they like; they have their own conscience to deal with)

So one door has closed, for now,

because I don't ever seem to give up, do I?

A second door opens with an email and a phone call

that caught me at the most unexpected moment.

Will keep my fingers crossed for this one. :)

It came with the rain, as always.

At the moment, I'm going to be going for form 6;

to kill time on one hand, but also for the fun of it.

YES, I said it. Form 6 IS fun. No joke.

I like whatever I'm learning, with the slight exception

of Pengajian Am, of course, but I could learn to like it.

I guess if I think about it like history,

i might be reading PA more often than I think.

My favourite subject still stands with Mathematics though

but I'm pretty much loving Chemy and Physics as well.

And like everything else I do,

I'm going to make the best out of each minute spent in Form 6.

The past few days have taught me a few things,

but in the end, the most important one still rounds up to:

Life isn't easy. There are many cruel things happening around us.

And there's always someone who's being unfair,
and loads of times we doubt the existence of God.


But whenever I think about it,
I feel like I shouldn't be doubting God, since it wasn't his fault
things turn out the way they did.
We create our own future; we choose the paths to walk on,
God didn't make us choose, so its unfair to place the blame on Him.
Now that the veil no longer blurs my vision,
I can see things in a clearer perspective.
Yes, I do feel angry whenever someone doesn't keep to the rules
when I have, but that's no reason to ever curse God's existence.
And whenever I hear some one saying Life is hard,
I think back on Yui's song.
If life wasn't hard, then I wouldn't keep living on.


Thankfully enough,
this rain has just washed away any fears,
uncertainties, or any wavering feelings of mine.
これは Clear Mind と言う事かな?
Maybe I'll even be able to Accel-Synchro now,
in my very own way, by overcoming my own limits. :D