.:: UReSHii!!! ::.

Mood: Tired and still feeling a bit weak,
but feel much better after the postman came.

OMG!!!
It's finally here!!
My confirmation letter to the place of my dreams ^^

Yea, I know I shouldn't be in
front of the computer with a fever,
but I feel SUPER Happy about it
and I just got to voice it out ^^

Thanks so much Kami-sama!!
You've always been watching over me, haven't you?
I wanna thank my family for their support as well.

Now, i wonder if something else great could happen,
like me finally getting rid of this headache and temperature
as well as the set of common illness
(flu, cough, sorethroat, u name it)
and FINALLY start to read something for my exams.
I totally hibernated since 8pm yesterday to 10.30 am today.
Fevers really do knock you out, huh?
After recording for KWN, I was totally exhausted.

Yes, as much as it doesn't show,
I am horribly afraid because
I haven't read a thing for my coming exams,
I did read a little, but thanks to this fever,
its all deleted.

I guess I just have to start from square 1.
Well, after another nap
=)

Hopefully,
I'll be well enough to go to school tomorrow.

.:: SiGH ::.

Mood: Tittle says it all.
Not exactly the happiest or the sad-est person on Earth.

Sometimes, I can feel like the loneliest person on Earth.
That's what happens when you're the closest to the wind.
I somehow feel like I'm drifting further apart from
my friends. And because I'm new, I'm not exactly fitting in.
I mean, yea, I'm not totally insignificant now,
that's kinda like an improvement, right?

Why is it that when the world can look
so beautiful one day,
It can suddenly look so sad on another?
Doushite kana? =)

Well, guess I seriously have nothing to blog about.
I know everything is always MY fault,
at least I want everything to be,
because that way, well, I CAN do something about it.
What's the fun in blaming and complaining
about someone else and then find out
that you can do absolutely NOTHING
about it?

Guess you're right.
I do do a lot of things alone.

Or at least, half right.

I always SEEM to do things alone.

But in actual fact, i've never been alone.

Cos the wind's always there for me.

And so is He.

.:: MeGuMi ::.

Mood: Feels kinda funny really. But im happy, so its fine.

Just to note,
I'm NO longer sitting alone in class anymore.
Leesha had this great idea
and so now, 6 tables are connected at the back.
I'm sitting at the right-most edge.
Guess that's a good thing?
Well, it wouldn't make much of a difference
even if I was sitting alone,
because I already know I was never alone.

Next good thing to happen was that...
I finally managed to make the scrabble club.
Club activities can start finally.
I'm hoping to make it to nationals again
next year, but it's gonna be tougher with Steph
and Potato-Head in U-18 now.
But when there's a will, there's a way,
I guess.
I can't wait to see everyone again.

Still waiting for that 'concrete' evidence that i'm not
dreaming to arrive.
But I'll be patient,
I've already been waiting so long I guess?

And the other good thing was,
I got an unexpected call from 'someone'
who left Malaysia some days ago.
It was nice to hear from him.

Hmmm...
and owh yea,
my sept test results... were...
well, at first i thought they were diabolical.
But it wasn't that bad considering
I got a perfect score for my favourite subject.
It was a good game.

Tittle of today's post is Megumi because...
well, if you watch Special A,
you'll know who Yammamoto Megumi is.
I totally had to talk like her today in school
and tuition.
I lost my voice due to sore throat.

Of all sickness I hate sore throats.
It's really difficult to get through the day without singing.
My voice is as important to me as Mitsuki's
(Full Moon Wo Sagashite) voice is to her.
It was kinda funny communicating through
writing and now I appreciate my voice
more than ever.

OMGosh! Isn't Rolo just cute?
I finally watched the next few episodes of
Code Geass - Lelouch of the Rebellion R2
I like Rolo's power, seriously.
And I still pity Suzaku till now.
Wonder what's happening next...
It's getting more twisted than it already is.

.:: WHeN THeRe'S a WiLL THeRe'S DeFiNiTeLY No WaY I'LL QuiT ::.

Mood: It's strange to be feeling so enthusiastic all of a sudden.

Hanazano Hikari.
I'm so glad I watched Special A.
It's given me such a positive outlook on life.
One minute, it feels like everything might crumble
and the next, well, I can deal with it.

Yup.
I know my strengths.
And I also know that I have many,
many weaknesses.
But I also know that one day,
with enough self-belief,
those weaknesses will blossom
into lovely flowers of strength.

That's why I'll never give up.
Have you ever seen the wind stop blowing
just because there's obstacles ahead?
Has water ever stopped its flow?
No and so won't I.

Today, I finally was able to complete my first Rubik's Cube.
Yes, I know it's surprising.
But I guess with good classmates who are
experts at the cube teaching you,
it's hard to not solve one.
Though I take what seems like ages to complete one.
But the point is, hey, I did it =P

Didn't get a chance to watch Code Geass R2 today.
Was busy sleeping. =P
Owh and when I opened my email about an hour ago...
A very long awaited email (actually it wasn't expected,
cause it was supposed to come late Oct/ early Nov
and in the form of snail mail) finally arrived!

But I'm not gonna burst the bubble here,
so I'm gonna wait till something more concrete arrives.
Today was one heck of a wonderful day.
Did anyone notice how beautiful the skies were?
I could almost sense my other half soaring up there,
and I can't help but smile at the thought of it.

Yup, life's almost reaching perfection,
ironically it was just about to crumble,
but I guess I truly am not alone.
Because even if everything falls apart,
I'll just sing myself a song and get over it.
Because that's who I am, right?
(To those who know me best =P )

.:: TaGGeD BY HaRMoNY::.

Tittle says it all.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must
write their answers on their blogs
and replace any question that they dislike
with a new question formulated by
themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 10 people to do this quiz and those who are
tagged cannot refuse. These people must state
who they were tagged by and cannot
tag the person whom they were tagged
by continue this game by sending it to
other people.

1.Do you have secrets?
Nope. Not to myself, at least. Owh and the wind and family.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I don't need someone else to ask me that.
I'll make all my dreams come true myself because
it's my dream(s) after all.

3. What are the things that can cheer you up when things
go wrong?
A song / nap / food. Yup, cheering up's simple enough.
Rain and a gentle breeze would speed it up though.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Split it and give it to my family members. Especially grandma.
Then, invest the rest, or charity or something.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Which best friend? And what kind of question is that?

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
One's pointless without the other.
Go listen to Love Chronicle by Myco.
That will explain things a little.
Personally, loving someone because that's what gives us
the will to protect.

7. If you had 3 wishes what would it be?
I don't need wishes. I'll make my own come true.
Didn't I say this before??
However if I did, I want none for personal gain,
choice of wishes goes to family.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I won't tell him. Why burden him with my feelings?
And I'll probably be happy for him, because I think
true love is being happy for the person you love,
as long as he's happy, even if it hurts yourself.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Yup!! ^^ Talked to Gaaya on the phone,
have been watching plenty of anime,
the sky's been pouring and the breeze's been blowing.
What's not to be happy about?
Owh, and I lived another day =)

10. What takes you down the fastest?
Lack of self-belief.
But I've overcome that. 

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
I'll still be the same inside, except I'll look a bit older?
I'll always be me, that's for sure.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Family, myself, the wind, the rain and the One who's been watching after me
from above.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
I'd rather be just happy.

15. Would you give all in a relationship?
Depending on with who. If the guy's Takishima Kei / Tamahome
or any bishonen from my anime list, yes! =P

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I'd pick the bishonen from my anime lists. D'oh!

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone
has done?
Depends on who the person is.

18.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
If I were single, then I won't have to burden anyone, right?
I might have to deal with everything alone, but that's
just fine with me, I guess.

19. What's the hardest thing for you?
To stop singing when I feel like it.
To lie to myself.
To not watch anime when I want to.
Ehhe.

20.Tagging:
hrrmmm...
1. Grandpa
2. Jonathan
3. Eugene (I see harmony forgot to tag you)
4. Kaelan
5. Aaron
6. Anju
7. Ethan
8. Nad
9. Tze Yen
10. Wern Yen

.:: HoP! STeP! JuMP! ::.

Mood: Just finished watching Lelouch of the Rebellion (finally!)

Lelouch is soooo kakkoi!
Eventhough I wished it would end when the
SAZ of Japan was announced by Euphie.
Poor Suzaku and Euphemia.

And to those that already watched
Code Geass R2, care telling me what happened?
I started the 1st episode already and I'm still blurr.
What happened to Nanaly?
I have the series, just haven't had time yet.

The tittle of today's post is a phrase from
Shugo Chara.
Amu's Chara Ran's phrase:
Hop! Step! Jump!
Just love the 2nd opening song,
Minna Daisuki by Buono.

Buono's a really great group in my opinion.
Because of all their encouraging songs.
Like Hontou No Jibun and Kokoro No Tamago.
Also, finished Special A at last ^^
That's so sweet! Hikari X Kei at last! =)
Wish there's a second season though,
can't get enough of the song Gorgeous 4U

-----------------------------

On the other hand,
I can't help but reflect on how many times,
again and again I've been saved by the melody of the breeze.
Totally eases me everytime I feel down.
Seems like I'm easily feeling down now
ever since I transferred.

But I can't let that go on, right?
I know You're always there,
so there's no reason for me to be feeling down.
I guess... after all,
the word 'emo' is just unsuited for me.
Heck, i don't even know its true meaning.

And to everyone out there who's out to get me,
I'm so sick of responding to your childish whims
and actions.
I don't plan to keep it up forever,
I know I shouldn't complain,
but there are limits to insults.

But now, I know it doesn't matter anymore.
Say what you like because I've once again realised,
like I did a few years ago, again and again,
that whatever ANYONE says will never change me
because ONLY I can do that.
Because's I'll always be me.

Sorry to dissapoint you, but you can't bring me down,
because I'll always be able to get up.
Because I'm not alone.
You can say I'm hated, but so what?
Even if I am bullied, so what?
Even if I should be ignored, so what?

It won't changed the fact that all those things happened
because I am me and not trying to be someone else.
And to me, that's all that matters.
 And besides, I know I am never alone.
Each second, every minute, every single hour.

Someone once said:
Tomorrow will always bring something new.
So, why mope about today when you can anticipate tomorrow?
Everyone has a purpose in life. Find yours.
And care about nothing else.

I know of my purposes.
And I believe, I was born to protect
and make my family happy.
Just like Lelouch to Nanaly.
=)

Yup, don't I just love anime.

.:: Sotsugyou Sayonara Wa Ashita No Tame Ni::.

Mood: Totally cheerful now thanks to the rain pouring down recently.

Well, I don't know why I've recently
gone back to listening to InuYasha songs.
It feels sorta nolgastic.
I miss those times.

Let's see, the last time I listened to these songs
was when I was in Form 1.
Four Seasons by Namie Amuro was me
and Haru's favourite song.

It just made me realise how much,
things have changed.
Eventhough I wanted things to stay how they were
back then forever...
I guess it's just not that easy.
But I'm thankful that some things
will never change.

This song, the tittle of today's post translates to:
Graduation, Goodbye's for tomorrow's sake.
This was sung by my favourite duo,
Tackey and Tsubasa
I especially love Takizawa Hideaki (Tackey)

It's not new... In fact kinda old,
whenever I listen to this,
that episode where Kikyo sorta 'dies'
replays in my mind.
Again, nolgastic.

Here are the lyrics, so just appreciate them.

もしも一つだけ　たった一つだけ
かなえられるなら　なにを祈るかな？
いまどこにいるの？　いま誰といるの？
青い空見上げ　そっと問いかける

With you　すぐそばにいた頃の君はいない
With you　離れても変わらないと約束したのに

たとえばぼくたちが想い出になる
そばのぬくもりには　もうかなわないから
せつないためいきが　不意にこぼれた
舞い上がれ遙か遠く君に届くように

きっとその未来　ぼくはもういない
それだけのことに　やっと気づいたよ

For me　迷ってたぼくの背を押してくれた
For me　微笑みに隠していた悲しがる瞳

たとえばぼくたちがさよならになる
そばにいてほしいと　そうつぶやいていた
やるせない想いが　声にならない
せめてこの祈りだけは君に届くように

終われない想い　空に放して
たとえ一人でも　歩いていくから

櫻の花が舞う　あの日のように

まぶしい想い出のヒカリを反射(うつ)して
せつないためいきで　色鮮やかに
舞い上がれこの想いのすべて　届けてくれ

たとえばぼくたちが想い出になる
そばのぬくもりには　もうかなわないから
さよならは未来のためにあるから
舞い上がれ遙か遠く君に届くように


English:
If one, just one wish
Could come true, what would you ask for?
Where are you now? Who are you with now?
I look up and ask the blue sky

With you - you were always by my side, but now you’re gone
With you - though you promised not to change even when we were apart

Even if we become a memory
I am no match for the warmth next to you
A sad sigh escapes my lips
I hope it flies far away and reaches you

I know I’m no longer in your future
I’ve finally realized that

For me - you gave me a push when I hesitated
For me - hiding the sorrow in your eyes behind your smile

Even if we say goodbye
I murmured that I wanted you by my side
I can’t put this miserable feeling into words
I just hope this prayer reaches you

I release my endless love into the sky
Even if I’m alone, I can keep going

The cherry blossoms flutter, just like that day

Reflecting the light of bright memories
With a sad sigh, I send all my love
To you in brilliant colors

Even if we become a memory
I am no match for the warmth next to you
Goodbye is for the future
I hope it flies far away and reaches you

Romaji:

Moshimo hitotsu dake tatta hitotsu dake
Kanaerareru nara nani wo inoru ka na?
Ima doko ni iru no? Ima dare to iru no?
Aoi sora miage sotto toikakeru

With you sugu soba ni ita koro no kimi wa inai
With you hanaretemo kawaranai to yakusoku shita no ni

Tatoeba bokutachi ga omoide ni naru
Soba no nukumori ni wa mou kanawanai kara
Setsunai tameiki ga fui ni koboreta
Maiagare haruka tooku kimi ni todoku you ni

Kitto sono mirai boku wa mou inai
Sore dake no koto ni yatto kizuita yo

For me mayotteta boku no se wo oshite kureta
For me hohoemi ni kakushite ita kanashigaru hitomi

Tatoeba bokutachi ga sayonara ni naru
Soba ni ite hoshii to sou tsubuyaite ita
Yarusenai omoi ga koe ni naranai
Semete kono inori dake wa kimi ni todoku you ni

Owarenai omoi sora ni hanashite
Tatoe hitori demo aruite iku kara

Sakura no hana ga mau ano hi no you ni

Mabushii omoide no hikari wo utsushite
Setsunai tameiki de iroazayaka ni
Maiagare kono omoi no subete todokete kure

Tatoeba bokutachi ga omoide ni naru
Soba no nukumori ni wa mou kanawanai kara
Sayonara wa mirai no tame ni aru kara
Maiagare haruka tooku kimi ni todoku you ni

In the end, I've come to realise,
if I 'will' it to,
some things will stay the same forever.
And one of those things that will never change,
is my desire to protect everyone important to me,
starting from those important memories.