.:: HaJiMaRi No KaZe Yo ::.

Mood: Trying my best not to feel saddened at the fact that my treasured friends are a school away.

Yup, as all of you MIGHT HAVE or MIGHT NOT have noticed / known, I have transferred to SABS two days ago... *NOTE: SABS is just OPPOSITE SMART. Reason? I'm gonna be taking EXTRA art stream subjects, mainly economics and accounts. SMART doesn't offer. This would probably total up to 13/14 subjects...

I also got back all my 1B exam results...
8A1s and 1B3
BM -> 73% (B3)
ENG -> 83% (A1)
PHYSICS ->83% (A1)
MOD. MATHS -> 94% (A1)
ADD. MATHS -> 88% (A1)
CHEMISTRY ->88% (A1)
HISTORY -> 87% (A1)
BIOLOGY -> 81 % (A1)
MORAL -> 81% (A1)

NOTICE that I have 3 pairs of matching marks. A NEW record. XP

Anyway, before leaving the school, I cried a lot...
The main point is... I miss all my friends. I can't believe that I'm already in a different school, eventhough it was a decision I had acknowledged and made... Tears still come when I think about all the good times I had in SMART.

Today, we had the sports practice thingy in SABS... I got dragged into the yellow house, but I guess I will be a WAJA (blue) member forever... after all, blue has always been my colour... But when they were doing the sports events, I remembered about SMART's sports day. The 400m and 4X400m race was already full, so i didnt get any chance to join... Gaaya, I'm sorry, I guess next year I probably won't be able to run for Waja after all... I almost cried when i thought about it. And I guess this year was d last time I'll be able to laugh at the funny mascot acts WAJA and KEMBARA always pull off. I guess this is what I'll call EX-SCHOOL-SICKNESS. Haha... =P

To all my scrabble frens, I apologise if we can't meet up later on... It's a new school and all, but i'll still try my best 2 get to the nationals. I seriously miss everyone.

And above everything else, I apologise to all my friends in SMART for not saying anything... I wasn't really sure that I was gonna move, so i couldn't say anything... But trust me, it was a tough decision to make. A lot of contemplating and tears. But I hope you guys will understand. And above all that, thanks for still being such great friends. I love all of you ^^

Well, I guess that's it... The post tittle's Hajimari No Kaze because whenever I was feeling sad or depressed, or even slight regret, the Winds of Beginning blows into my face, saying, "It's alright." This is a path I chose and I won't live on regretting it. =)

.:: SWaN LaKe...? Nope! XP ::.

Mood: a bit tired after the concert practice.

For those of you wondering, "what's with this random Swan Lake post tittle?", the reason is because, its only a few days away from the ballet concert my ballet school is having this 29th March. Everyone is a part of it and I'll be dancing two dances, one solo and another with my partner.

I have finished my february test and I'm kinda happy for getting A1s for all d new subjects. (Physics = 84, Biology = 87, Chemistry = 90) For the old subjects, I'm a bit dissapointed.. but to look on the positive side, at least I didn't fail. I can't believe I only got 90 for Modern Maths and 100 for add maths... @.@ Somehow, everyone keeps saying it should be the other way round... But anyway, it doesn't matter, because i personally think add maths is easier and more fun to do... XP I know a few classmates who would definitely disagree with me on this statement.

Lets see, the elections just passed by and well... I have no comment on it... Politics was never in my list of interests after all... too complex for a happy-go-lucky soul. Haha... I did hear that the results were historical, but I much rather not pay attention to that. My advice to myself, if there's no hope for today, hope for tomorrow.

Owh yea, and I managed to get my prefect post back. Yay ^^ (All prefects retire after form 3 and re-apply for the post in Form 4) This time, Priya made it too. Finally, I won't be the only non-muslim prefect of my form ^^. I'm loving the holidays, been watching lots of anime and have updated my list from time to time. So far, I've watched Princess Princess and Harukanaru Toki No Nakade Hachiyoushou. The guardians of Byakko, Seiryuu, Genbu and Suzaku are just so cute and cool!!~ A total bishie-filled movie. Even the bad guy is "gyah!gyah!gyah!" material. My favourite character has got to be Abe No Yasuaki, the Byakko of Heaven... It's just so adorable how he says, "mondai nai" (No problem) << Amanda is now muttering his words over and over again... haha..

Last Friday (the day before elections), we had choral speaking practice. It felt kinda awkward to be teaching the team in my mum's place, but I'm glad I got my old job of being a conductor again. I miss the old days. And after this week is the long-awaited 1B Exam. To be honest, I'm a bit nervous, but my fear gene's are failing me again... I can't get freaked out enough to seriously study.

So anyway, the list of activities that I have joined so far are:
1. Public speaking
2. Sports day (4 events, 100m, 4X100m, 400m & 4X400m)
3. Spell It! (organized by RHB & NST)
4. Sofbol MSSD (as a scorer)
5. Choral Speaking

and the list of TO JOIN are:
6. Parliamentary Debate
7. Scrabble Inter-School Championship
8. ICT competition
9. ICAS (4got wad it stands for)
10. Olympiad Matematik

I'll update if I think of any more... anyway, if there's any anime you'd like to recommend, be sure to comment. Thnx!~ Blessed it be.

.:: SPoRTS DaY // aTaSHi No NaKa Ni NaGaReTe aRiGaTou, KaZe::.

Mood: Body aching all over the place. Muscles killing me... But I think I can deal with it.

Woke up around 6am this morning, which is unsual for me on a Sunday. The special reason was today is SPoRTS DaY.

Unlike every other Sports Day, this time, i was actually taking part in the running. A lot of people find this hard to believe, but owh well. Anyway, I was SUPPOSED to enter 200m and 4 X 100m and was kinda nervous because I have NEVER held a baton before. (NOTE: This was my FIRST time running in a race)

Sport's Day, like every other year since I can't recall when, was always held at Stadium Darul Makmur (The only stadium in Kuantan) This year, it has to start off a bit early because by 2.30pm another school will be using it. I reached there around 6.45am. Sabrina and Priya were already there. We waited for the rest till 7.00am before entering the stadium for registration.

This year's sport's day was a bit unique as it was the first time there were to be CHEERLEADERS for each House (also known as 'Primer' in my school). There were 4 Houses altogether, WAJA (Blue, also my House), WIRA (Yellow), KEMBARA (Red) and SATRIA (Green) It started of with the foot drills as all the uniformed units and the 4 Houses marched around the stadium. Then, the song Negaraku was sang and the prayers were read. By this time, the 1500m race had already ended. (This 1.5km race was also a new addition to this year's Sport's Day)

I was extremely nervous, but not too frightened as there was still some time before 200m and 4X100m. The teachers had already called out the 100m participants and were ready to start. They couldn't find the participant from WAJA and so I had to replace her. Luckily, Gaaya was also a participant, so I wasn't totally freaked out. When the gun was shot, all of us ran as fast as possible, but I ended up third last. It was nothing to be sad about, as I never expected winning anything in the first place. After returning from the 100m race, teachers called out for the 400m participants. I had no idea what happened to the WAJA participants from my category because this time NONE of the participants were there. Desperate to have at least someone to enter, I got dragged in by my House teacher who spotted me at once.

I reluctantly agreed, saying "Cikgu, kalau saya kalah tak apa kan, sebab takut tak larat..."

So anyway, the race began. I don't know what happened, but i WON 2nd for this race. Maybe I was better at long distances...? By the time I came back from 400m, the 200m race had already started, so I missed it. The 4 X 100m race went badly as my whole team ended up last. Then for 4 X 400m, I ended up PARTICIPATING as well... and we GOT 3rd!! So, at the end of the day, I managed to get 2 medals, one silver and bronze. Yay ^^

And that wasn't it... Apparently, I had strained my muscles and had to face an aching life for two whole days. Trust me, it was painful... But I guess, it was worth it... ^^ Looking forward to becoming scorers for SOFTBALL this whole week. (26/2 TUESDAY - 29/2 FRIDAY) And there's ST John exam this SUNDAY. That's something to be looking forward to... @.@

The tittle of this post means, thanks for always flowing in me, Wind.

.:: You'Re WiNGS oN MY HeaRT ::.

Mood: A bit tired.

Its been long since I last blogged. As most of you SHOULD have noticed, my blog's turned blue and the blog tittle holds more significance to me. (I think no one would know the reason though... haha)

Anyway... School has been recently fun and tiring, stressful and enjoyable.
I just feel like shouting out that I hate it when people look down on my abilities and dislike it when people think I could do better than what I'm doing. Not to complain, just a thought.

After entering the upper forms, I realised there's just so much I don't know. I really have a lot to learn about and the hunger for knowledge just intensely builds up inside of me. My senses are sharpening and I finally can hear the voices of my inner talents calling out to me. (Okay, this sounds absurdly poetical, but just bear with it for now.)

By the way, You're wings on my heart's the tittle for today because, well, since Valentine's day just passed, I was thinking lots about RAVE, the 3rd anime I watched and the ending song just keeps pouring into my mind. True serenity.

.:: PeRSoNaLiTY TeST ::.

You Are Internal - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled internally. If you want something, you make it happen. You don't wait around for things to go your way. You value your independence and don't like others to have control. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order. You realize that working the system does get you further. You know who to defer to and who to control. When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

.:: 16 / a NeW PeRSPeCTiVE ::.

Mood: It's been raining lots. I'm happy ^^

As all of you might or might NOT be aware of right now. I'm form 4 this year.
At first, my thoughts were NO BIG DEAL. I'll still be the same me.
I still think so... (except when I heard abt BM format. 350 words!! Owh well, I'll learn)

After a diagnostic test, we got streamed into our new classes. As my school's a all-science stream school, I don't think it made much of a difference whether you're in first class or not.
I got into 4SA together with Chew Yee, Adele, Ann Bee, Wen Jun, Hisyam, Faqar and Zulhilmi. 
Sabrina's in 4SB with Priya and Nad.
Gaaya somehow ended up in 4SC together with Sam and Manda. 

I was really dissapointed at first that we were sorta seperated, but at least I know most of the students in my class. The teachers at first were kinda crappy because they gave us practical teachers. The Add Maths teacher didn't know what he was talking about and couldn't do sums well. But later on, we had very good teachers who made all subjects fun and interesting.

ENGLISH teacher makes you write essays whenever you forget your homework
PHYSICS teacher likes to teach a bit fast and let you 'kejar hantu'
ADD MATHS teacher is clear and precise.
HISTORY teacher makes history HIS-STORY.
BIOLOGY teacher makes you sing if you didn't finish your work,
BM teacher is kind and considerate (likes us to go slow)
and last, but not least,
MORAL teacher always has a story to tell us and makes it so much easier.
CONCLUSION : F4's kinda fun.

We had this PHYSICS QUIZ and it was sooo fun!! We divided into 6 groups with 5 members each and the marks we earn from the quiz would contribute a 10% in out February test. She used a powerpoint, each group chooses a number and answer the question. Most marks win. Faqar was the 'pencatat'. Among the questions, suddenly came : Who is the most handsome in your class? And we were like, "Teacher, apa kaitan ni dengan fizik?" Most votes go to Faqar, second to Hisyam and last, Zulhilmi. Haha... And the bonus question was, "Who's the prettiest in your class?" Lastly, my group won with a lead of 2 marks. (14 marks total) It was interesting, really.

For ENGLISH, we had to do speech craft every lesson. 3 chosen people will have to go and pick a tittle from the box provided and talk about it for one minute. If only impromptu was this easy! The tittle I got was, "My life 50 years from now." I crapped A LOT.

And it just happens that we totally forgot about our BIOLOGY pembentangan. Luckily, teacher let us use the board and I explained it orally on the spot. I just said whatever crossed my mind. And thank goodness, teacher said it was good. My group didn't have to get punished after all. Phew!

Anyway, this year, I've made a resolution to try and enter more activities in the St john / Sports section. And I'm sure many of you out there think that I'm no sport-person... but I can try can't I? Also, I'm supposed to cut down on society-based activities... I think public speaking, debate, scrabble, kuiz sejarah and kuiz ASEAN should be enuff.

Unfortunately, the second resolution wasn't fulfilled. I got myself into the Toyota Ecoyouth project and I can't withdraw. Oh well. At the same time, drama and choir's open. So my final list: drama, debate, public speaking, kuiz ASEAN, kuiz sejarah, kuiz perdana and scrabble.

But my first resolution made it. Halfway, at least.
I got chosen for 100m and 4X100m.
Never knew I had it in me.
All I was focusing on was chasing Gaaya, who happens to be the fastest runner and oops! I ended up 3rd place and was shortlisted for 100m and 4X100m. Tryouts for 200m and 400m's next week, wish me luck!

Today, during PJ i had tons of fun playing softball.
First, we practiced batting the balls and my balls actually flew and hit the roof of the surau! (kinda proud... haha =P)
Then, we used the harder ball and practiced throwing. I'm so much better at catching balls now, but my back is aching. Maybe next time have to really warm up.

Owh and I still have to go to school tomorrow for Softball practice (7.30am) and continues with ST John footdrill practice till 11am. All for the sake of State Com. Wish me luck!

.:: FoRM 4 // 16 ::.

Mood: I can't believe it. I'm a form 4 student. It hasn't been raining much, but I'm kinda happy.

Don't really know why I was so happy in school today. In truth, I'm supposed to phrase is as boring. But anyway... Maybe cause it was kinda fun. I had fun with my group.

It all started after the diagnostic tests. Firstly, I totally predicted the worst outcome, but it turned out way better than I thought it would be. Thank God.

Our first group assignment was to create a signature cheer for our group. And select a group leader and SU based on the results of the earlier personality test that we completed.

I ended up as the leader of my group and Khairi's my SU.
Group cheer?

To the stars and above...
5...4...3...2...1...! Ready... Go!

Kinda lame, I know, but it was the best idea we could come up with in 2 minutes. Next, a group name.

I suggested Starlight 7.
But writing it as STaRLiGHT VII looked a bit classier.

Today, we had to sit with our groups again. At first I was kinda reluctant, but then, I'm kinda relieved and thankful I have such a nice group. We communicated more today, I guess.

The first test given to us was done quite badly... I can't believe I wasn't creative enough to crack that 2nd question.

But we covered up that failure with a success in answering the 'problem solving' question as the ONLY group that solved it. Well, it wasn't done alone, so many thanks to all my fantastic group members. And what's most important is, we had tons of fun doing it.

Home is such a comforting place. I really feel lucky to have such a great life. Its nice to know that you have someone to back you up always.

I miss someone, but I'm not going to let that drag me down. Life has to go on, right?